so i have this problem...
i'm trying really hard to figure it out

its like.. i dont know if i have D.I.D. or not... but its like i become other people, with different problems.. you see, i'm fine, i don't really have any issues... i don't feel depressed or anxious, but i know that i get like that some times, but not me; its like having a roomate that will just decide to take over the house and make it his alone for some time.. like, im almost sure that if things dont go according to my plan today that he will be back tomorrow if not later today, but he is me, when i am him...

its just so difficult for me to understand this, i go to therapy but i dont know why, besides to help that part of me, but its not me that goes to therapy; its him

i just have a question, if a person has D.I.D. then shouldnt he just tell me?
why do i not seem to be able to communicate with that part or whatever it is that happens? like, why dont you just say something to me already you idiot! (saying that i feel like there are someone saying something but i dont know what)
it makes it difficult for me to just say "ok, i have D.I.D."

but maybe its because i've been like this for ever so its difficult for me to notice? like, maybe the voices in my head aren't me, maybe they are them and i should treat them different than i do instead of getting so angry with myself?

hmm... im going to try to write this down so i can have it to share with that therapist when i go (or he goes) maybe then she will be able to talk to me, or tell me something to help me understand why i switch like that

like, i have scars on my body so its not easy to ignore and be like "im fine!!"
clearly i have cut myself, so i know that its not ok, somethings wrong and im trying really hard to figure it out; if i have to share this body with roomates i would atleast like to know who is in the room with me, or atleast the house so that we can make rules about whats up

does any of that make sense to you guys?
thanks for listening