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Originally Posted by elevatedsoul
so i have this problem...
i'm trying really hard to figure it out
its like.. i dont know if i have D.I.D. or not... but its like i become other people, with different problems.. you see, i'm fine, i don't really have any issues... i don't feel depressed or anxious, but i know that i get like that some times, but not me; its like having a roomate that will just decide to take over the house and make it his alone for some time.. like, im almost sure that if things dont go according to my plan today that he will be back tomorrow if not later today, but he is me, when i am him...
its just so difficult for me to understand this, i go to therapy but i dont know why, besides to help that part of me, but its not me that goes to therapy; its him
i just have a question, if a person has D.I.D. then shouldnt he just tell me?
why do i not seem to be able to communicate with that part or whatever it is that happens? like, why dont you just say something to me already you idiot! (saying that i feel like there are someone saying something but i dont know what)
it makes it difficult for me to just say "ok, i have D.I.D."
but maybe its because i've been like this for ever so its difficult for me to notice? like, maybe the voices in my head aren't me, maybe they are them and i should treat them different than i do instead of getting so angry with myself?
hmm... im going to try to write this down so i can have it to share with that therapist when i go (or he goes) maybe then she will be able to talk to me, or tell me something to help me understand why i switch like that
like, i have scars on my body so its not easy to ignore and be like "im fine!!"
clearly i have cut myself, so i know that its not ok, somethings wrong and im trying really hard to figure it out; if i have to share this body with roomates i would atleast like to know who is in the room with me, or atleast the house so that we can make rules about whats up
does any of that make sense to you guys?
thanks for listening  |
do treatment providers automatically say you have DID...
not in my location. in my location a treatment provider stating someone has a mental disorder with out the diagnostic process stating they have that disorder it is grounds for that treatment provider to be fired and prosecuted for emotional abuse and false memory syndrome, causing a false mental disorder imposed on others.
besides the legal issues of a treatment provider in my location telling someone they have DID or any other mental disorder, they dont always tell someone they have that mental disorder due to the persons problems.... example if someone has done mega research on a mental disorder and have convinced their self they have that mental disorder that can be affecting the way in which a treatment provider works with that client....what happens when a treatment provider confirms or denies that mental disorder... it can open a whole bunch of problems like denial, false memory syndrome, false alters, suicide, psychosis gosh so many things can go wrong if a treatment provider just blurts out at someone who has been doing mega research and leading their self into believing they have a mental disorder and the treatment provider confirms or denies it with out actual diagnostic evaluations to confirm or rule it out.
only you know what your last diagnostic evaluation showed on what mental disorders you have and how you answered any of the questions during the diagnostic process that you went through,
only you know how you need to tell someone, a treatment provider about your own problems. short version I am not in your body and I am not the one seeing your treatment provider only you can do that. only you know which forms of communication works for you.
if you really want to know whether your insiders are normal, psychosis, dissociative or otherwise type of alters you will find the way to communicate with your treatment providers, and you will find the way to getting a new diagnostic evaluation.
think of it this way if you had a cold or flu or broken bone or other physical health issue you would know with out anyone telling you how to tell your medical doctor what is going on so that your physical health problems get diagnosed and fixed. well dealing with mental health is the same way. if you have a mental problem you just know what you need to tell your treatment provider about your own problems that will get you your new diagnostic evaluation.
its been a year since your last one and you are applying for SSI / SSDI right so now is a good time for you to sit down and think about whether you really want to know what your mental disorders are and write out your problems and then find the way that best works for you in telling your treatment providers what you need and want. (thats what people with any mental disorders do in my location when they want to figure out how to tell their treatment providers things and get a new diagnostic evaluation done.)