Hello. Thank you so much for sharing with all of us. It seems to me that you have a lot of hour thoughts and feelings of the situation figured out. Some phrases that you used that stuck out to me was "if you want him you can have him" or "glad we are far away". To me this seems indicative that you are very much so not wanting to be with his in a relationship anymore. Is this correct? I'm not going to tell you if you should break up or not. That is entirely up to you and what makes you feel the most comfortable. But if what you say is how you feel that you want to be single or that you just want him as a friend, then why keep him as a boyfriend? if he chooses to respect your choice to stay in your life, then great. If not, then what would your plan of action be do you think? (ex: finding people to hang out with to distract yourself) Do you think you may be holding onto this out of fear of not knowing what is to come after your breakup?