Hi rukspc

Firstly, although I'm sure you've heard this before..........from the heart.........a persons true worth/value should never be based on skin colour, economic status, social status, job, health etc, etc, etc............it just shouldn't be...........everyone can be special in their own way, no matter what discrimination is out there. So please don't compare yourself, please don't let any of that make you feel "less than"

And...........I've got to agree with Bill, although it may be hard to feel now...........it did take great courage and bravery to reach out, it takes a real strong person to do that and hopefully it might allieviate some of the "what if's" which might have come up in the future..........as in "Why didn't I just pick up the phone and......??".
So while it might really hurt now...........you could have saved yourself months........years..........in the future of...........so honestly please congratulate yourself and your strength on that

And maybe some of the hurt you're feeling is about your self esteem?? Your negatively comparing yourself to others making the "rejection" feel even worse??
BUT you deserve more than wanting someone who can't/isn't giving you what you want/need, if he isn't "stepping up to the mark" then that's his failure it doesn't need to say anything about you as a person.
It mainly fell apart because he couldn't completely commit........you were trying.........but...........and if he can't commit now...........you deserve more than that.........so please try not to loose any (much?) sleep over him

Alison