I treated myself to a massage today. I carry a lot of tension in my back and neck, so it was really good. Sometimes racing thoughts get in the way, but I try to push them back and just focus on how good the massage feels. It sort of gives me the ability to do some mindfulness learned in therapy. I finally see my therapist again tomorrow. She had been away, so it has been 3 weeks since I've seen her. It's definitely time.