I don't know what to do. Life really sucks right now. It doesn't seem that anything I do can change it. The only problem is I can't bear it anymore. I'm stuck where I am at and there is no getting out. I try my best to be positive, but nothing good comes out of it. Only makes me more depressed when I realize I only have false hopes. How could I have been so stupid thinking things would change? That we were just going through tough times and things couldn't stay that way forever. Well, they didn't stay the same, they only got worse. I feel like I'm drowning in my own dispair. Why is there no help for the lost? What have we done so wrong to deserve so much torment? What do you do when you can't even afford to survive? So many questions and no answers, so much pain and sorrow with no way of obtaining relief. My life is filled with so much hopelessness.