Hi! I'm sorry for all of this you are going through. As was mentioned before, it appears that he wasn't interested from the begining. I'm not sure if contacting him again was a good idea or not, but you said you contacted him before you wrote your original post, and your later posts suggested he hasn't shown interest (again). If this is the case, what is done is done. Process it, accept it, and move on. You deserve someone who is interested. Who sees your uniquness. Time has this mysterious effect of healing you. It will take you through these stages. I also would suggest to embrace yourself with all of your differences. Don't compare yourself with others. You are unique. You are capable. We're all one race. It's called homo sapiens. Good luck