Why does everything hurt so bad? Why am i so scared? Why is no one listening? i cant take this anymore i am exhausted maybe this is what the evil person wants so that they can strike when i am down i dont know if i can make it the 2 days to my T appointment. i want to scream i cant take this i am still very paranoid but the thoughts are becoming more and more real to me i feel like this is the end like i have tried everything but everyone wants me gone so maybe i should be maybe it is just time. i am so tired of fighting and it hurts so so badly it aches i cant do this.