It's ok to cry or scream if you need to. And I've often spent depression (heck the last 2 months) curled up in bed staring at the wall. Ideally you need treatment but there's nothing that makes that not ok while you wait. I know people have given you lots of coping strategies; try them. Try to rest and tomorrow is another chance to try to fight the system. I know how hard that is when you feel bad but you can do it. Just one little step at a time. Even write out steps; I've done that before so I can check them off and so I don't forget a step.

We're here for you.