DechanDawa thank you so much for your understanding and encouragement. Thank you Rose76 for your empathy and wise words. I found your trapped/lost analogy powerful. I agree that having a worthy endeavour to commit to would be helpful.
Until experiencing this bout of depression I never really understood how people could become so immobilized and house bound. This has opened my heart to others who are struggling. I am determined to pull myself out of the deep depression well. I will post about my progress or regression. Hopefully more prog than reg.