To be honestly blunt, you are psychotic at the moment. Your brain is not able to function correctly so is lying to you. I have been psychotic before so I understand how real it seems and how hard it is to see reality. These fears, paranoid ideas and hallucinations won't pass until you receive treatment (most likely, sometimes they pass by themselves). Until you see your therapist (and it is CRUCIAL that you get to that appointment) try to listen to us who are telling you these fears are unfounded. You are safe, except from yourself. No one is watching you with cameras or impersonating people.

Please try to find that part of you that can still think rationally and listen to us here who are trying to help you through this horrible episode. You are paranoid, yes, but it is not real. The truth is you are very unwell and need urgent medical attention. Please continue to do all you can to get that help. You should not have to live in this terror and anguish. We at PC can't fix what is going on in your brain, we can only direct you to those who can help you. No one is out to harm you. I am glad you are still posting. Do whatever helps you stay safe from you harming yourself. Get to that appointment. It may save your life.