Thanks for posting this thread! I relate so much. I have a huge fear of getting close to males for the sole reason that I don't feel safe. All I think about when being in the presence of a male is that they just want sex. It scares me because as I get older the expectation of experiences & desire for it increase & I am left in a state of mind of a child who just wants a friend. The thought of one day having a partner & sharing a bed is extremely scary. I can't help but feel as though I am damaged in some form.