Welcome to the Board!!!.

I too was thrown out by my ex and I thought I would never make it without him. The day he threw me out, he had taken my paycheck the week before so when I lost my job that day I had to live in my car with the clothes on my back with 2 dogs in cold winter time, battered and beaten. It took me 2 months to find a job and from there I was able to afford an apartment. All the while I just wanted him to come back and get me regardless. I just wanted him back. Today, 9 years later (I still have so many days that I would jump to go back with him at any cost but things have changed) I own my own home-no one can throw me out in the cold, had my own car - no one could take away, and some pretty good counselors to walk with me through the long journey. Like I said I still have my days. But I learned that I can survive without him and I'm ok. Good luck to you and take care of yourself and the baby.