Thank you Luce. I keep telling myself that it will be ok. I keep telling myself that I'll get used to it. That is what I was telling myself yesterday when I made the drive. The closer I got the sicker my tummy felt.

Ruh Roh, I think the part of me that you are asking about, is the part that was making the drive and I lost it on the way. If that makes sense.

Today it just keeps cycling around. One minute I'm fine and it's going to be ok, the next minute I'm silently freaking out and then I'm numb again. This is wearing me out! I'm
sure y'all are sick of hearing it too.

I Have do idea what I'm going to talk with him about tonight. Sure, this would be good to talk about but I'm afraid to. If I'm not brave then the alternative is more than I want to think about dealing with. I don't know what I'll do.

Thank y'all!!