.... Other times I remember how I feel when I do do things, the feeling after. Like the gym or walking in nature, for instance. Today, I went to the gym, but I literally took a detour / joy ride before I actually went there. I'm wanting to get to the point where I don't do that much, either. But I'm not being hard on myself today.

.... Also, another thing I notice about myself is that when I procrastinate, I literally feel worse, emotionally, and the worse I feel emotionally, the harder it is to get myself to do stuff. ....