Thanks for the replies - let's me know there ARE really people out there. I have no one to talk with - except my therapist - and he gets paid to listen.
I can't figure a way out of /through the depression. I am so sad and cry all the time. I could be buttering my toast and I start crying. I just feel so alone and worthless. I find pleasure in nothingl. I left work at 10:30 this morning, came home and crawled back into bed. I really wish God would take me. I don't know why I am alive - what purpose I have being here. I don't want to die - I just don't want to live like this anymore - I can't - it is too much pain and sadness.