I'm so angry and disgusted with myself right now. I did well for two weeks where I managed to email T only once or twice (huge improvement for me). Then this last week has been really hard and I needed a little extra support, so I emailed once more, then again, then I was out of control and emailed multiple times a day. I don't know what's wrong with me. Finally he had enough and didn't respond, and somehow the child in me took control and canceled my session for this week. My rational side snapped to it in about 1/2 hr, at which point I emailed back, apologized and asked for my slot back. He wrote back that he had given it away already. He gave me a few other options but nothing worked for my schedule. Now I'm moping and I know it serves me right for being impulsive, but I just feel so sad that I am such a mess and that I probably drive him crazy. I'm embarrassed that I am so needy. I have some serious attachment issues that have really come to the surface with him, and it's so painful. Will this stuff ever get better? I've been doing therapy with this T for about 15 months.