i think so too Luce... but i know that no one here can tell me

i just have to figure out how to talk in "real life" better so i can talk to treatment providers about it..

im just having a really hard time right now...

i go to therapy and then i dont know what happens, i get triggered a lot in the waiting room... triggered a lot on the ride to the clinic because of my dad since i cant drive and have to have someone take me... and he's the only one currently that takes me...
so by time i get through with therapy i dont remember anything that happened... cant remember what we talked about or what she said ...

im just gonna try to talk to her about evaluations and assessments this next time, im supposed to be reading this book but i havent been able to because of too mch stress...

i just have to keep trying... dont give up... everything will be ok... this what i try to tell myself...
its just hard... dunno why it has to be so hard...

im gonna make it work some how... thanks you all, i know im a mess... im ashamed..