I guess for me revisiting the past is/has been a way to understand why I feel and believe the way I do and a way to overcome them by weeding through fact and fiction.The things I thought were real or true as a kid were wrong and I only seem to see that by processing old traumas,not the acts of abuse(they have to be talked about to be understood tho)but how they made me feel and believe about myself and other people.

Maybe I'm just an oddball because I need to analyze all of it but it's what works for me.I have to understand the how's and why's of all of it in order to get it.I thought I already knew how where and why too until I revisited things from my adult mind and eyes.And in that way I have found it is possible for me to change old recordings.Not all of course but many and hopefully many more.