Im glad i was understandin you right. Its harder for me to know if im knowin things right when im all stuck in small NiKKi mode. Lol. I get confused lots of the times but what you was sayin sure made sense to me. Im glad i was right n not all wrong.

Thanks for wishin me luck. I sure need it. Im doin ok right now and im glad i got to say all that i was sayin here without cryin all over the floor. Im real apart from it right now but who knows how long thats gonna last. At least this week wasnt so rough as other times have been. I think lots of that got to do with the hard work them ones in the last group did before. Its like each group of us works hard n then stuffs not so hard for the next group. It was still tough but not as bad as other times have been. Im glad for the hard work them other ones before me did. Then i know to that well if i work hard to then maybe it wont be so hard for somebody else later and that helps me know that yep i can do this. I gotta do this. Its important. Big steps hurt huh but you right it is helpful and healing. We can do it we can do it.

NiKKi