I think that giving your appoint way that quickly is horrible as well. I've been in both situations where my T was concerned about me canceling and also where she just gave my appt out quickly. I know it's a horrible feeling. You would think that you're T would understand the pattern and try to work with you instead of against you. I know for me I felt "uncared for". I've never brought it up to my Ts attention when she did but perhaps you should. I know my Ts reasoning was that I was an adult and that she's not going to force me to do something that I don't want to do but I really wanted to be there. It was more acting out on my behalf. I get your situation. It does get better but it didn't for
Me until I pulled away and tried to view our relationship for what it really is due to boundaries and whatever other things it entails. It's complicated for me still but I don't email anymore.