Hello mmiikkeeyy: I'm sorry I cannot really comment with regard to your concern except to say that, over the time I've been here on PC, I have read a number of posts written by members who have had concerns similar to yours. So you are by no means alone in this.
I see this is your first post here on PC. So...

to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks!

May the time you spend here be of benefit.
PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become.

Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!