I'm a bit concerned about my feelings towards my family.
Some things you should know beforehand:
-Abusive mom
-Alcoholic parents
-Dad who practically isn't there
-No childhood thanks to them (Not allowed to play with children below a certain class, not allowed to have "cheap" toys (No toys) and no playing
-Mom often locked me in a dark room, knowing I hated the dark

Anyways, so, I could rant on and on about my mom and my dad, but I'd like to know how I should feel towards them. I've called social services, but they dismissed my case because my parents weren't doing drugs, and the lady told me that I should feel fortunate to live as I currently am. I can't complain about this or tell my teachers, because last time I tried, the teacher basically told me that I had to suck it up, and that I was ungrateful for the extravagant life I'm living. They all think that money brings happiness, and therefore, I need to shut up. Because of this, my parents also tell me the same thing, however, I don't know how to tell them that I don't like being hit, locked up or yelled at. Not sure what to do about my parents, because I can't change them or replace them. My mom often tells me to kill myself or disown me, making me pack up my stuff and making me leave the home, but the hitting me after I do exactly what she says. What should I do?