things got really bad when I lost bethany

so bad to the point that I kept feeling their was an american guy called anthony following me everywhere (why american and why anthony I don't know)

took ages to get over that

also recently when our friend steven died it really affected us (not as much, but it did)

the biggist affect on us though was when michael jackson died (a whole year of just, unexplained stuff)

I think i may have mentioned it ages ago in another thread, but celebrity death impact me more than family death

though it's a selfish reason, I think it's because they all treated me like crap, and I lost all respect for them all ages ago