Thanks everyone

I'm feeling a little better this morning, although the sui thoughts have been waning in and out. Still no depression, though, which is obviously a good thing.

@naynay: you're right that I am using sui ideation as a coping mechanism. I'm not intentionally doing it, but it's a natural response for me.

@bioChE: thanks. I'm trying to imagine what life would be like without me, but I'm having a hard time being logical about it. I mean, I know I would be missed by some, but there is also the emotional pain and stress that is overwhelming me. It's slowly eating me up inside. I mean, I know the emotional pain and stress will eventually go away, but it will most certainly creep back in in the future. How much of my life will be consumed by these never ending thoughts? For how long will I suffer? Is it worth living? That sort of thing.