I had a weird experience. About 2 weeks ago I decided that I didn't really need an alarm clock because I just used my cell and I could see the clock on that no problem. A few days later I found that I would wake up with panic attacks and not feeling safe in my apartment. I couldn't figure out what the problem was until I realized that the illumination thrown off the alarm clock was something I used as a kid as a kind of alarm to know when my father was next to my bed. I could see the changes in the light or the shadow and would have time to prepare myself. Without that light in my room I ended up feeling vulnerable and scared. I am amazed at how one man's actions have affected my life in even the smallest things.
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Dx: Bipolar 1 Ultradian Rapid Cycling w/ Psychosis & Compex PTSD w/ Dissociative Features
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