You are correct, I am on vacation at the moment and things are going very well this week. I have mixed moods rapid cycle bipolar 2 and the day prior I was pretty depressed. I believe it is a feeling of sitting at the top of the roller coaster and your heart tells you the bottom is about to fall out as it does ever time. I guess I couldn't put it in words but I can now, thanks. I have joined here to feel less alone. I have great support from my spouse but no one gets it and that make me feel so very alone. I have only been apart of this for a few weeks but already I feel a since of belonging, being able to reach out to other is a major help. It may or may not help the big picture but it definitely help me feel more at ez with it all. Thx