First, suicide is not an option, your to good for that. I think all children iduldge in some form of sexual pleasure, but don" realize what they are actually doing. YOU DID NOT COMMIT A CRIME!!! RELAX! I did the same similar thing when I was younger, and I'm a man. A child doesn't know what masturbation is, they just know that what they touch or feel on there body, they enjoy it. Even at 16, your still kinda a child. Compulsion is something I have but in a different form. I like to wear diapers. It started at a very early age and can't separate from it. It's a compulsion I cant explain. So believe me your not alone. See if you can talk to a counselor about it And I"M sure they will help you.