I'm a combat veteran and I have PTSD. I've been dealing with feelings of inferiority, no self worth, and hopelessness. My wife doesn't understand me, we always fight, and the only thing that makes sense anymore is to just end it. Everyday I struggle with thoughts of harming myself. I spend most of my time inside my head planning it. Some days I consider ending my life. The thought of suicide almost brings me a sense of calm. I'm finding fewer and fewer reasons not to do it. Normally what stops me are thoughts of my wife and parents. What would happen to them? Would they blame themselves? Would they do something drastic? I don't want to burden them with having to deal with everything once I'm gone. I've even considered hiring a lawyer to handle my particulars when it's over so they aren't burdened with me anymore. I don't know what to do or where else to go. I can't check myself in because we run our own business. If I go to the hospital we will go under financially. I feel lost and see no light at the end of the tunnel.