i can definitely relate. sometimes more than others, i have a sense of who "I" am, but it can also get very confusing. like you, i feel like it's this me who is mostly non feeling and does the day to day stuff. i try to keep things level so nothing happens like triggers (not that those are easily avoided) and try to be as 'normal' as possible (again, hard to do).

i don't have hobbies. there are TV shows i like but can't always pay attention to them. i don't have goals, dreams, aspirations, etc. because i guess my function is just to keep trying to live, though just surviving is getting old again. i try to pretend things are okay enough to the outside people.

as for the others/parts, i usually only feel things if it is their stuff. sometimes, i can feel something on my own, but usually i am just numb.

trying to figure out who i am outside from them is challenging. sometimes i think there is another version of me who is not me but not like the others either. that is confusing too.

i guess sometimes i am more just me and not so many other parts are around, but sometimes they can be.

talk about making/not making sense...haha