una, your reply makes sense but it stings! I don't think my childish needs will ever get satisfied, unfortunately. T says we've been working on my building up my Self for a long time. I know I shouldn't pretend to be artists or friends with T. What I really want right now is a mother because I don't feel well physically but I don't know what's wrong. Except for the heel spur, and terrible allergies, and pain in my arm. T thinks a lot of my pain is psychosomatic. I disagree. I hate not feeling well!