Thanks, Bluebicycle & AnxiousGirl (oh, and to those who provided a hug!)! I'm sure I'll be back on PC more now. You're right, there are many compassionate and empathetic people here on PC. I had "withdrawn" from it because of time and energy constraints. But, now I will have at least one hour "free" each week now. I wish I could believe that how distraught and hopeless I feel will get better. But, after my final session with T today, the darkness has fully enshrouded me. Sorry to be a downer...