I have had this dynamic with certain people in my life and you know what is frustrating? I ask myself what is it that I actually WANT them to feel for me - and I seriously can't answer the question. I kept thinking I want them to care about me / love me / have regard for me. But I can't quite grasp EXACTLY what this means, or exactly what it would feel like (in their minds) for them to have that attitude towards me. There is something that seems so ungraspable, and murky but so overwhelmingly significant about it :/

Anyway, can't offer much advice but certainly sympathize!