Yes me. Social isolation makes me feel more useless and more depressed and I'm cycling down. I seem to be thinking more and more about self harm in ways that haven't been an issue in 20 years

I've run out of money and being in this situation has forced me to ask for help . I hired someone to literally come over and coach me out of this. Not a therapist just someone I know vaguely who seemed like she could help but also doesn't know me enough for me to care what she thinks . Ok I do care but not as much.

Job situation is bad but we talked it over and settled on freelance work . For now.

I do ok parts of the day sometimes when I pop some Ritalin . I'm thinking of taking Zoloft dunno. I think I want to give up and I want to slowly starve myself. I probably won't because I don't even care enough to do that and I end up binging as well . Apathetic mostly.