Thanks for your comments. I have been trying to find my own but many of the T's in our area who work with TFCBT have waitlists. I think the support he offered made me feel open, instead of numb as i have for years, and the attachment ensued. I thankfully also realize this and am trying to counteract it. I specifically wrote in my email that he could not say things like "you deserve to be safe" and "we can take the fight" because I'm not accustomed to it - so maybe that changed something. I just didn't think it would hurt. I'll think of it as another growth opportunity.