Yesterday, I spent way to much time here because I was monitoring this thread and it rained nearly all day. I didn't stay at my desk all day, just looked in on the thread periodically much of the day. Occassionally, I waste to much time here but I do not watch much TV.

When H is not working the time he spends watching TV/playing video games is similiar to the time I spend on here. I am not concerned about it at all--he is about to turn 60 years old! He seemed didn't seem concerned about me the rest of the day and I was here a lot. It felt like he was anxious about me yesterday morning and just needed to get it off his chest. As far as how controlling he is, there is just one area of concern for me. He has ocassionally given me "ultimatums" about things. And rather than having it out with him, I kept it from him. For example, when our children were not home and struggling financially, he said firmly not to help them in anyway. He was hoping their lives would get so pitiful that they would come crawling back home and play by his rules. I just couldn't stand seeing the condition they were living in and would occassionally buy groceries for them and give my daughter money. He kept saying, "you betting not be helping them," but I did it regularly behind his back. Perhaps the real problem is that I don't stand up for myself in order to avoid conflict.

Mostly though, I just come here because usually I am the only one in my home that wakes up between 1:00 and 4:00 AM and this is something quiet I can do. H says when I work in the kitchen, the noise wakes him up. For me, the real test concerning "do I have a problem" will be do I stay away from it when I start working next month? It is a job I do from my home and I have a very flexible schedule but the pay isn't bad when I am focussed. Though even at that job, I cannot sign in until 8:00 AM, so I will come here when I wake up early.