I understand the disagreement, I really considered all sides before making this decision. Yes, we've been suffering here at home and this possibly contributed to my curiosity. If he knew he'd be hurt and possibly flip out. I figure what he don't know won't hurt him...I trust the event is kept between my friends.

About my children. Most of our issues is kept between him and myself, but occasionally it slips out the bedroom door and they do see us arguing. They've never seen more though. I imagine they can sense the tension and lack of love though, children can't be tricked fully.

I'm not sure how I would feel if he did this to me. I'd be confused for sure, but I think a deep deep down part of me would be relieved. He went to a party recently with some people from work and in the back of my mind I hoped he'd get laid. It's strange I know...

I've never actually been as laid back about sex as I am now. I always thought two people should love one another before they have intercourse. It's a new attitude on sex and probably temporary. If he seriously went and had a one night stand...no love, no relationship...just pure sex with a friend....it'd be fair wouldn't it. As long as I didn't know about it I suppose.

Ya'll probably think I am whacked for thinking this the way I am.