I more or less have both. I am under doctors orders to stay in bed because of all my falls and any movements, just flat out kill my gut at times, to the point of almost passing out. The anxiety, depression, lack of freedom, loss of you so called "friends", is not something to be taken lightly. My greatest passion, besides being a grandfather, was photography. Photography for me, is just a distant memory. In all, I really don`t understand the rationale of this question?