I couldn't find my t office yesterday even though I have been there twice before. I fking couldn't find and missed my appointment. I drove around for 40 minutes looking for it. I don't know why the f no one helped me. My system is confusing me now. We knew where we were before we moved so we didn't get lost even if we hadn't been there before. Now sometimes when I am driving I don't remember seeing most of the ***** I am looking at. But I know I have moved to a new state. Just sometimes nothing looks like I have ever seen it before. Sometimes I believe I couldn't find my way back to NY. but I can. if I need to. Sometimes I just want to get in the car and drive off. leaving everything behind. why not. But my dog wouldn't like to be staying in the car and than who would I be. I just want to see my grandsons. I just want them to know I love them. and that I didn't leave them. I am furious right now for the position I am in. I want my life back. wtf happened. f everything.