I know very little for certain but one thing I do know is you are far from stupid Blue. I don't know why you abuse meds...I don't know why you aren't compliant....but I do know that it's not a result of your stupidity. Maybe digging and exploring the reasons with your doctor could be helpful. It's easier for doctors to call someone non compliant than it is to take the time to understand why they aren't and address the underlying reasons. That would take more than 15 minutes and it's easier to deny meds or prescribe new one.

I hope you get the answers you seek but I can say with certainty that stupidity is not a trait you possess....nor do I feel that others who are non compliant are so out of ignorance.

Good luck.