I recently stopped taking Abilify for the same reason: to induce hypomania. I had been depressed and thought it would bring me 'up.' Not only no luck there, but I also felt 'stupid.' But it's not that. Hypomania itself can be so addictive and it's very hard to think of the consequences when you're so desperate for that -sadly temporary, usually- high. I get it. Don't beat yourself up about it! You're doing the best you can under very difficult circumstances.