Just had another bad day. I am very prone to believe whatever someone thinks about me.
I am devoided of a strong opinion about who I am, I need other people to tell me who I am and I easily believe when they say bad things about me rater than when they say good things about me.
Today I came from the hospital thinking I should never had becoming a doctor. I came home believing I am going to be a bad lazy doctor because someone set unrealistic expectations about me at my very first year. And based in the way I behaved with someone that made me feel very unwelcomed and unconfortable. I had to hear a lecture, deal with it by agreing with every unpleasent thing that was being sad about me, making a fool of my self and thanking that person for telling me what I could change.
My sister helped me see this situation more reasonably. Still I am in the process of believing the reason and believing that my future won't be doomed because I haven't clicked with this person personality and she thinks she owns the truth and she most say it to me. I fear that by saying I am good enough I am lying to myself.