well September... one thing that i hope you'll agree on is that we both are brave and courageous... have to say again... catharsis is not easy...

you know.. thinking back... it was that combination of words "inner child" that triggered me in the past... i'm no child... i am a man...

it is perhaps easier for a woman to connect with the child within herself... for a man... we are constantly told to grow up... be a man... no tears.. no emotions.. just hardness... hard work... hard heart... because to feel is considered by "manly men" to be something a woman does..

men can't afford to stop and feel their own pain... if we did... another "manly man" would laugh at us... that hurts more sometimes than an honest punch...

we men are truly complicated beasts... and yet, i have an image in my mind from long ago... perhaps you've seen the commercial with the rather large man holding a small baby in his arms in a hug... i think it was a commercial for diapers...

there is a paternal instinct as well... but it gets buried under the hard choices we have to make each day... the impression we are required it seems to give other men.. that is of being tough.. tougher... tough enough... feelings threaten to destroy that image... that is why we talk about anything other than what we feel...

at work, someone may ask you how you feel... a woman can give several different answers, but for men, only "good" is the correct answer... anything else, and people might think we're having a hard time holding it together...

call myself a child?... shoot me first...

but that doesn't mean i don't like to play... and you can see for yourself how men play... sometimes it gets a little rough.. but as manly men.. we can take it...

the topic of overviews has been on my mind for some time..

the idea of measurments comes to mind...

as i overview this society i attempt to measure our progress and success in some ways...

i see a lot of room for improvement myself, in myself, and in my society...

each day i rise and each day it's the same old story... look where it has led us...

i've done my self work.. so that i could do my part to improve what i see is a downward spiralling community...

i come from a long line of Catholic priests and teachers.. those tendencies are in my genes...

so i just wanted to help...

i'm not finished.. reply if you want.. but before my net crashes, i'm sending this out...