I feel you. Most of my hospitalizations have been drug-induced psychosis related. Chasing the high is elusive, but it wards off depression. Then withdrawal hits and depression slams in like a mofo.

My suggestion would be to get off the coke and get back to a psychiatrist or into the hospital. Be honest with them about what's going on. There are alternatives to Abilify that aren't $1k/mo. Best of luck in your sojourn.