I get you on the going from a safe space to the outside world again .. are you able to have any contact with your T outside of session? Sometimes I text mine just to check in and make sure she is still there and that makes me feel safe again. I have only been seeing a T for a few months myself and some weeks between sessions are harder than others. I think trauma takes a long time to work through .. I have good days/weeks and bad ones too .. talking about it all for the first time is very painful and like opening up a can of worms and I imagine it's extremely painful for you right now but I do believe, from my own trauma, that talking about it does make it easier eventually, but along the way I am sure you will have times it feels harder to talk about than other. What didn't you like about your T saying she was proud of you? Just out of interest? When my T says that and thanks me for sharing it makes me feel a little bit conforted and like she understands how hard some things were to share.