I terminated therapy with my old therapist this month and started going someplace else, where I felt I would get better help therapeutically and financially. My old therapist didn't take my insurance and neither did my nurse practitioner, and I was paying out of pocket. I'm already poor and even though my therapist gave a discount, I couldn't afford it. I also started to realize that they weren't really helping me. With my therapist, I felt like she acted more like a friend and confidant, than a therapist, and i believe I actually saw her in this way for a while. I liked going there, for a while. Like a year. But I began to feel like I was dealing with some things she might not be equipped to help with. I discussed this with her and she didn't outright agree, though we did talk about a possible change in my diagnosis. She did say that if I were to leave, she pointed me in the direction of the place I'm at now. After that session, I kind of took things into my own hands immediately. I called the new place, made an appt, and texted her that I had done so. She said that the next appt would be a termination session. And suddenly I felt like it was fast. During that session with her, she said she also felt like it was fast, because of the deep things we were talking about with my possible diagnosis change. I guess it felt abrupt to her too. I wanted to set up one more appt with her in case I was feeling like I needed to see her one last time. But I ended up canceling it the day before. I gave over 24 hrs notice. But I read on her practice policy, afterward, that she rarely is able to fill an appt within 24 hrs notice. But it also seemed to say that that was ok to do. I think I may have upset her somehow. And I'm having these feelings of like, "She doesn't like me anymore. She doesn't care for me." I received a termination letter from her in the mail today, and it was very formal. There was no "it was good working with you, etc." The only things she said was that she thinks terminating is a positive thing for me to do because she thinks they will be able to help me better than she could. I don't think she meant I needed more help, but I know I need different help from what she is capable of giving to me. And I just can't help but think she personally dislikes me. She used to text me with smiley faces and exclamation points (just reminders about therapy, or answering if I had to change an appt). I noticed though, that the past few months, she hadn't done that and it made me feel disliked. I never brought it up.