Hello.
I have anxiety and have been treated with a low level of Zoloft for it. I used to have social anxiety, which is still there at times, and it used to be so bad that I refused to leave my home.
Anyway, I used to daydream a lot and researched about Maladaptive Daydreaming which I thought I had. My daydreaming has slowed down. It's still there but not as bad but the problem is I seem to be paranoid most of the time.
I usually feel like something or someone is near me but there's no one. I feel like someone is watching me at times but there's no one there and I feel completely crazy. Other times, I feel like I'm in another place or location and people are watching me or too close to me there. I have to pretend in my mind that I 'teleported' back to myself in my home.
I don't know if it's Paranoia, Hallucinations or just part of my Anxiety but it's horrible. I don't know what to do. I feel a little awkward speaking to my doctor about it and I know my mother would hit the rough if she knew!
Can anyone help me figure out what this is? Is it Disassociation or something more? Please help me figure this out or tell me what I should do.
I manage it at home and I hide it enough from my family but it's driving me insane! I even make these odd gestures or movements like I'm trying to get something off of me or away from me. I have even yelled out "Go Away" or "Don't touch me" when no one was home.
This used to just happen at home and when I left, it seemed like it stopped 'following' me. Now, it's always happening, even when I'm with other people and I have to hide my actions to get whatever it is in my mind to go away.
I know I talked a lot on this thread and I may just sound crazy but I really need help. I've tried looking up online what this is but I can't find anything. Does anyone have an idea?

Thank you, JasmineFlower