You're not stupid! That was really brave of you for being honest with your therapist. I second or third what others have said and work on just being med compliant regarding your bp. I would take the adderal to the pharmacy. Just get rid of it. I'd be too scared of taking adderal, lol. I'm afraid I'd go into a psychosis. But just get rid of it. Work on being med compliant for now.

Best of luck!