emotions are difficult. for me, a large part of my dissociation is linked to emotions. i dissociate when things feel too hard, dissociate when anxiety/panic/fear comes up, etc.

i also have a baseline mild numb depression, so that is part of what not feeling is related to for me also. i have an idea of things that make me feel kind of excited, content, etc. or things that cause me to feel anxious, frustrated, etc., but i normally only feel things more (and/or a wider range of things) when i feel something from one of the others or something reaches me enough (like a trigger) positive or negative if i am not dissociated so i can actually feel it..but if it's overwhelming (in a good or bad way), i also will be dissociated.

i don't know.