I have a voyeur kind of kink. Mostly I really get off on the whole idea of sex being the opposite of behind closed doors and private. I've never done anything purposefully voyeuristic in my entire life. However, I find watching group sex, and sex in public settings where one is supposed to "not" have it to be really hot. Especially when a voyeur joins in.

The thing is, this kink of mine can be a double edged sword because not everyone is open to that sort of thing. There are also laws and whatnot about public sex and "indecent" exposure. I could probably really get into some serious trouble with this kind of kink. That and I tend to be very introverted with my sexual feelings out of feeling really disgusted and whatnot. I know I need to work on my sexual confidence, but that's pretty darn tricky.

I know everyone has a kink of some sort and kinks are natural, and sex is natural and I shouldn't feel disgusted, but being raised by a mother trying to please her devoutly and oppressively catholic mother by raising me in the same way kind of ingrained the whole "disgusted by sex" feeling as second nature.

I like talking about these sorts of things on the internet, but face to face, I feel like so guilty and ashamed when I start talking and initiating anything, so I immediately clam back up.